theMIYUKINATOR (nijyuushi) wrote,

Farside: drabble drabble drabble

Remember when I told you all that my girlfriend wants me to be more active on LiveJournal but I might disappear until 2012 anyway? Well, apparently not! I hope you're happy, my lovely Nicole. I hope you're happy that I am actually getting out of my shell.

Me? I'm hating AP Physics and Serhiy is a butt. </3 But I got myself a couple new ringtones as I did this drabble meme so I think I'm all good. Enjoy~

Put your iPod/Mp3 player on shuffle. Write drabbles based on the first ten songs that play, but only write them within the time the song is playing. Then, after you post yours, tag 5 people.

I'll admit now that I have so many versions of the same song in my iTunes that near the end I skipped over 9000 songs until I found songs I liked. Namely, Disney and Ace Attorney. Deal, and enjoy. Also I'll be cheating and not tagging. So sue me.

1.  허락 Horak (Approval) by Jun Suh

I hope you realize, my love, that death is not the end of everything.

Noa calmly stoked his beloved's soft hair, mouthing along to her whispered lullaby as they sat in each others' arms after a long, tiring day. They had just discovered that night that Noa's death - something they'd known about, yet tried to forget - was looming closer than ever. Too close. Much too close.

"You said we'll be happy," Mitsuo muttered to him after their song ended, her arms snaking around his torso as she rested her head against his chest. "I can hear your heart beating, and I'm happy -- once this sound fades away, how, do you expect, me to be happy at all? You'll be gone."

I wouldn't leave you, Noa wanted to tell her, tightening his hold around her smaller body as he rocked them back and forth, back and forth. Even if I died, and you couldn't see me anymore, I'll watch over you - and Maer, Jr. - and I'll be your guardian angel, even if you don't believe in angels or ghosts. I won't be gone, just unseen. As I am unable to speak to you now, you will be unable to speak to me after my death, but I will whisper in your ear, I'll take your hand when you're lonely.

Noa opened his mouth and only the empty sound of a sigh came out. Mitsuo shifted in his arms and sighed as well.

I love you, Noa wanted to say, but he could not make a sound. Sighing again, he held Mitsuo closer.

2. Little Mermaid's "Part of Your World"

It was a few days after he was released from the hospital that Jin Parker showed him Disney's "Little Mermaid". The princess' song struck him as strange, as he watched her reach out from her underwater cavern, wishing, beyond all possibilities, to join the world outside her ocean haven, so she could be with a man who would not even remember her. It was strange. Utterly unbelievable.

Yet the net day, when he returned to the hospital to visit his friend there, a brown-haired boy by the name of Noa, he was surprised to see him looking outside his room window, down at the entrance, waiting for him to visit. When Noa waved cheerfully and then turned to stare at the sunny sky on the other side of glass window wistfully, Mitsuo Löwe was reminded painfully of himself, sitting in his kindergarten classroom, occasionally glancing out of the window at the cafetorium outside the window. He could see his older brother, the long-lost brother, Maer, sitting with his friends, laughing and joking and yet so distant. 

What was it like, out there, with friends? What was it like, Maer?

I wanted to be a part of your world, Big Brother, Mitsuo mused, as he waited for Noa to come bounding downstairs into the hospital lobby.

3. 人間が大好きな壊れた妖怪の唄 (The Broken Song of the Demon who Loved Man) - Touhou/東方

He was the man that named her, and perhaps he was the only human being to ever accept her as one of them.
The doctors who called her by her body's name, the parents that furrowed their eyebrows whenever she marched into the kitchen in their son's body, the siblings that turned to stare at her coldly, shunning her. Yes. Lynn was the only one that ever realized that she, a manifestation of Noa Alkaev's broken imagination, a result of his split personality, could be an existing human being. An ego.

He named her Michaela, simply because he liked that name. He took her to eat ice cream when she demanded it, and he let her play on Noa's vide game consoles and promised not to tell him even if she sucked badly at the game.

And she loved him. The nurses whispered behind her back and called her a monster - called Arnold a monster, as well - but they didn't matter. François Murel was a prick, but she didn't care. Lynn was her friend and even if she was a monster she loved him dearly because he thought she was human and that was all she needed.

All she needed. Ever. Ever. So even when Noa Alkaev decided to erase her from his mind, and when Lynn told her it was probably for the best, as long as he thought she was an important person it was fine. Because he didn't have a girl he loved, and he said she was dear to him.

So even when she saw that blue-haired girl kissing Lynn, that Senna girl, she thought she was okay.

"Lynn," she called out. But when he turned and greeted her back, his sweet voice did not call her by her name.

"Noa," he said, and then the nurses' voices rang loudly in her head, because she did care about those harsh remarks.

That Michaela personality. That Michaela, inside of Noa. That monster.

Did you know, she's a monster. And she's in love with that human boy, Lynn. Just like in those legends from thousands of years ago.

4. Rollingirl by wowakaP (Hatsune Miku original song)

I turned my head and saw Noa's sister, Aika, sitting on the living room floor dressed in her usual flowery tunic and long skirt, her hair held up by a brown hair tie, some sort of artificial pink powder on her cheeks. I'd met her back when she was young, and looking at her I suddenly realized that this was what a girl was supposed to look like. Or, at least, according to society, it was.

My name is Mitsuo, and I am, biologically, a girl.

I do not have the soft, round body associated with normal girls. I run around with my dominantly male population of friends and I punch my roommate in the face just as hard as his father does. I've been raised as a son, and I've been befriended as a male friend, and I am dating a man, Noa, who probably believes that I am a man, mostly because I myself was confused about my gender.

My head spins.

What am I?

My head hurts. 

I hold my breath and think think think.

5. 百恋唄 (Hyakurenka)

Mitsuo sometimes wonder if Noa really understood. 

Their exchanged words of love, the gentle and slow moments in time when Noa held her tightly, and the warm smile he flashed at her. They told her how much he loved her, and she tried to show him just as much as he showed her. And she knew that both of their feelings were genuine, and that Noa loved her. 

However, they were often separated because of his great-grandmother, who had a hobby of dragging him overseas to England every summer. Even while he was in Farside, he was often running around doing errands for her, those errands becoming more and more frequent as he grew older, and Mitsuo's uncle, Yusiya, increased his efforts in getting Mitsuo to Germany with every passing month. The quiet times they had together, alone, were scarce, and Noa often asked her if she was happy. Did she want somebody who could be with her more often? he would ask her.

It was ridiculous. When will he realize that she didn't care?

"I don't mind it if we're both busy," she answered as he packed, yet again, for his trip. Back then, she was not aware that he wouldn't come back from England at the end of the summer. "I'll see you again soon, and that's enough for me."

Noa smiled at her then - then, had there been any trace of guilt in his smile? He must have known, that they wouldn't meet for another year. "I love you," he told her. And he wasn't lying. "I'll be back."

"I love you too," Mitsuo replied, and she meant it. "I'll be waiting."

But neither were able to keep their promises. As Noa disappeared off the face of the earth after arriving in England, followed by the sudden chain of deaths in the country, Yusiya Löwe swooped down and took Mitsuo to his home in Germany. 

The seasons passed, and there was no word of Noa -- until they ran into each other on a street in Belgium. Noa was holding a newborn baby, both of them covered in dirt and ashes and a bit of blood. Mitsuo didn't ask what happened, but when Noa smiled sheepishly at her and made to inch away, she called to him.

"I love you, Noa. No matter what-- you do understand that, don't you?"

And Noa paused. He smiled, sadly, and nodded. "I know you do. But now, I somehow wish you didn't. But I love you too, Mitsuo."

He hadn't understood at all.

6. Soundless Voice

The snow fell silently into their hands, melting the moment the flakes touched their skin. They were beautiful in the way that they were so ephemeral, and Mitsuo watched with fascination as they fell one by one, into her palm. Next to her, Noa was looking up at the sky, silent, but she knew he was happy. Mitsuo glanced at him for a moment, at his gentle smile, and she looked down at his hand, resting calmly with his fingers weaved through hers, between their knees. He was so relaxed, so trusting, and so vulnerable. 

"Noa, are you cold?" Mitsuo asked him, knowing he couldn't hear. She said it anyway and tugged at his arm, gesturing to him when he looked down at her. When he smiled and shook his head, she nodded back at him, and then scooted closer, holding his hand more securly, and leaned her head on his shoulder. He didn't look surprised, but he did seem quite touched as he chuckled quietly and leaned his head on hers.

He was silent. Before, if he still had his voice, he would have taken the chance to whisper her a word of affection.

She missed it. She wanted to hear his voice.

"Noa, will you call my name?" she said into the air. Noa shifted, having felt the vibration of her voice agains his body, but he didn't know what she said. She shook her head and snuggled closer, feeling happy to be close to him, yet feeling so distant that he could no longer hear her call his name, could no longer let her hear him call her name. If she could take her own voice and give it to him, she would.

"I love you, Noa," she continued. "I wish you weren't dying right now. I wish you'll call my name and tell me you love me too." She squeezed his hand. "I love you. i love you."

He would soon be unable to see, unable to move, and then, he would disappear somewhere she couldn't reach him. Far, far away, and she would be alone. The thought scared her. She wanted Noa to stay, to be by her side. He'd promised her they'd be happy.

She sniffled, and noticed that Noa was shifting beside her. He suddenly handed her a small note.

I love you too, Mitsu. Why you crying?

She held back a small sob and clutched the paper tightly as Noa leaned down to kiss her gently.

"I love you," she whispered to him, and he smiled back.

7. I'll Make a Man Out of You (Mulan) by Disney

Honestly, Heinrich and Rei were terrible at raising children, especially boys. Their first child, some impolite child by the name of Martel... well, say, his case could be forgiven. He was their first child, after all; it wouldn't be surprising that their experimentation could go wrong. Their second son, Maer, that pompous brat, was all right when he was younger. He was cheeky at the very least and liked to defy his parents, but he was young. However, it became obvious soon enough that he was no good as well.

Yusiya Löwe sighed and rubbed his temples. When will he finally get that perfect Löwe the family had tried to achieve for generations and generations?

He looked at Heinrich's third child, the daughter, little Mitsuko. She was sitting in the armchair across from him reading - reading -- her father's book! A large textbook, at the age of three. She was a refined thing, a bit curt and slightly monotonous, but she was intelligent, and, best of all, obedient.

If only she were a son, Yusiya mused. If she had been a son, she would have been the perfect Löwe.

If only, in only...--

Wait a second.

Yusiya quickly got to his feet and marched up to the young girl, who looked up at him calmly as he stood over her.

"Is there something you need, Uncle?" she questioned as he put a hand on her head. Yusiya scrutinized her.

Yes, he thought. Yes. He was the head of the Löwe family, a family known for its great achievements in the medical field. Estrogen was not his enemy.

"Your name is Mitsuo," he said to the girl.

"Huh? Don't be ridiculous," Mitsuko replied steadily. "That's a boy's name. My name is--"

"Mitsuo," Yusiya repeated. "From now on, you'll be a son of the Löwe family."

Mitsuko - no, Mitsuo - stared at him. Stared.

And then said, "Are you serious?"

8. Reflection by Christina Aguilera

I hate my hair, that makes me look like my mother. I hate my golden eyes, that make me look like my father. I hate the snarky old men that come to my father's parties and tell me how much I look like my mother in her old dress. I can't stand the lonely look in my father's eyes whenever he tells me how much I look like my dead mother.

Why? Why, do you ask?

Because, as long as I am compared to my parents, or to my older brother, for that matter, I can never be known as me.

Me. Me. Me! You do realize - I'm the one living in this body, no matter how much I might resemble other people?

It's hard, you know, standing in front of the mirror and wondering every morning, who am I?

My name is Senna. I have Alan's eyes and Lily's hair and Corey's personality. I am the Nadel daughter. I. Am. Senna.

When will they come to understand? When will they not call me "Miss Nadel" but something more. More me. Me me me!

I love my blue hair, that Lynn calls pretty. I like my golden eyes, that Lynn says are like garnets. I like my name Senna, that sounds so cool when Lynn says it.

My name is Senna. I am Senna. 

9. 大江戸戦士トノサマン (Steel Samurai OP) by Hatsune Miku

"You do realize that we are going to watch this on opening night, right, Noa?" Mitsuo said as she waved the poster in Noa's face. Not expecting this sudden attack, Noa blinked and took the paper from Mitsuo, raising an eyebrow at the poster of a rather familiar looking robot samurai.

"And this will be....?" he started.

"The Steel Samurai! From the Ace Attorney series," Mitsuo answered, almost excitedly, as she then waved her pink DS in Noa's face. Noa could clearly seethe Steel Samurai sticker Lynn had made for his girlfriend a few months back, something Mitsuo had more than readily slapped onto the game console. He grimaced at the poster.

A Steel Samurai movie. A movie based on a series inside a game from 200 years ago. This was, Noa thought, quite... ridiculous.

But Mitsuo, the serious yet dorky fangirl of the lawyer game, was determined to go. She had her jaw set and her eyes sparkling brightly with expectation as she stared at Noa with the utmost seriousness. Noa had never seen her so excited about anything.

He sighed, and smiled.

"Sure why not."

"Did I forget to remind you that I love you?"

10. Kiss the Girl (Little Mermaid) by Disney

Halfway through their first date, Jin realized that Aika expected him to kiss her, and then he also realized that he had never kissed anyone that he actually liked. Sure, those past one-night stands on drunken days came with slobby make out sessions, but this was different.

"Um," he started, and his girlfriend turned to him with a smile. She was blushing a bit, definitely expectant. He gulped. "Um...."

"Hey Jin, are you nervous about kissing?" Aika asked him, her eyes sparkling with mirth as she stepped closer to him. Jin jumped at the sudden proximity and stared at the girl with slight apprehension as she inked arms with him. "It's not really big of a deal, Jin. If you're nervous, I can kiss you instead?"

Since when was this girl so forward, Jin wondered. The last time he checked she was bashful and quiet and -- oh, right. She didn't know that he liked her back, believing that he still had a crush on his best friend boy-not-boy roommate, Mitsuo. Right. Right. However.

"Do you realize how detrimental that would be to my pride?" he retorted, pulling Aika to a shady bench near the corner of the amusement park. As they sat down, Aika sat facing him, smiling. "Uh...."

"Then I'll wait, Jin," Aika assured him. "So kiss me. Soon."

Jin mentally groaned. He needed those huge brass balls that would give him the courage to kiss this girl, he concluded. Huge brass balls, some courage, and maybe even an ego as big as his girlfriend's older brother Noa.

/LE FIN! 8|
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